Blue Cars & Blessings

This afternoon I stepped onto the front porch of my parents house and decided to count the blue cars that went by. For no reason other than..my car is blue. Hey what can I say, I'm easily entertained! As I'm counting and I get to 5 God uses this to show me how He blesses me. Sometimes the blue cars came back to back or spaced out. But I always knew they were coming simply because I know they exist! God's blessings are ready and available. Its just when He will give them to us. One by one or back to back. Faith helps us trust that God is in control and His timing is the best. Ultimately we know our blessings just like blue cars exist so we just have to wait on them!

BTW..There are a lot of silver cars out there.. *wink*

Book Spotlight: The Power of Positive Thinking

I picked up a book Sunday night in Barnes & Noble having heard about it before in another book that I've been reading. Its called The Power of Positive Thinking by Norman Vincent Peale. I have not been able to put this book down!

On first glance it seems like a self-help book but its way deeper than that. I would describe it as a book that is helping me get closer to God. Really! God promises are all through this book and even though I am only at chapter 5 I am more encouraged and feel more at peace than I have in years. I know it is no accident that I was able to have this opportunity. I am so in love with God promises that I find myself diving into the Bible in search of more peace and comfort.

I really can't describe how elated I feel and I know everyone may not feel the same when reading this same book. God reaches and speaks to people in different ways and I honestly believe He is reminding me of who is right now. All I want to do is shout and praise Him right now. I just finished reading Psalms 27. Read it and maybe you'll understand.

Sidebar: This book was written in the 1950's but it is timeless. God's promises were the same then, now and forever.

IMG00153-20100920-0036.jpg

I need a moment!

Recent events have brought me to a time of reflection. I don't know why God allows things to happen or what the reason is. I just want everyone to know that if I don't answer your calls and texts right now please just forgive me because things are a little harder than usual right now. I'm working on getting back to me though, I promise.

If I could change one thing in my life...

If I could change one thing in my life, I would have a sister. Not that I would trade my brother in at all. I love my brother. We have a great friendship for siblings. I still wish that I had a sister though. I often feel like its me against the world because I don't always feel like I have someone in my corner. I often feel alone, like I don't have anyone who understands. My my girls all have sisters. That is the one thing that I wish I had. for female friends have come and gone. Very few have stood the test of time. My closest female friends are the best. Rhonda and Jailyn have a special place in my heart. But they are not my best friends. Why? Because they already have best friends... So therefore I have very close friends. Lately I have been dealing with a lot of emotions and I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. I don't always know how to deal with it. I feel like talking is best.. But who do I talk to? My closest friends both male and female are either married or in serious relationships and I don't want to bother them. If there was ever a time to have a sister. For me now would be the time. I don't want to be angry or bitter and I don't feel like I should be. I have to just find a way to deal with my feelings without that "sister" I've always wanted.

Natural Hair!!!

I cut my hair today after months of debating what should be done to it. The style I really wanted to do I have to postpone due to the maintenance requirements. I went for the short natural cut that I did years ago. I knew not everyone would like my hair but I figured the majority of that would come from people from other races with whom I work ;). I never would have thought that I would have to defend why my hair is natural and short to the people who are closest to me who are also black.


My previous cut years ago. 2006

It's amazing how everyone claims to be so proud of being Black and all the attributes that our culture is attributed with. Beautiful behinds, broad hips, full lips are some of the few things that Black people are so proud of. Yet! SMH Yet so many have issues with kinky natural hair. Not the hair that has a natural wave when wet. But the hair that soaks up water like a sponge when wet and shrinks! LOL Instead most favor relaxed or pressed hair. I have no problem with either and may probably go back to any of them at any given time. I just don't understand why I am given grief for wearing my hair natural. I love my hair any way that it is styled. I just want others to accept me as I am just as I accept them.

I'll post a pic of my most recent haircut in due time. ;)

"Scrubs, Oh How I love thee!"

So lately the only clothes that I can fit comfortably are my jeans and scrubs. I'm so thankful that I can because the place I go to most often is work. Anyway I've gained about 15-20 pounds depending on the day.. smh. Anyway if you don't believe me check out these pictures and compare the two. The one on the left is from July 2009 and the one on the right from February 2010.. two weeks ago. I took the same pose..not on purpose.. and look what I saw! Fat! OMGeee!


I have to admit then I was doing Zumba and I had just moved back home and was running 3 miles a day outside. Since then and over the winter months I haven't run outside as much because of the weather and I also was under a lot of stress at my old job. Usually I lose weight under stress but I guess since I'm getting older I did the opposite this time. I'm determined to get it off and I've been doing way more than before to get back to where I was.

This was from a few years ago at ESPN Zone
Now its already bad that I haven't been to church much not because I didn't want to but because I can't fit any of my clothes... It really makes me sad because all my clothes always had extra room..except my jeans. I don't know what to do! I've been working out four days a week (Spin classes, weights, and running) since January and eating salads and trail mix and only drinking water. Any nothing. I still can't fit any clothes. I actually split my scub pants yesterday while stooping down to give a little girl a hug when I was leaving work! I was devastated.. and I headed directly to the gym after leaving work. What to do I don't know... I'm just venting... but I have to figure out a new strategy. I've even thought about becoming a vegan so that I can lose more weight.. I know that's not the right reason to change to that lifestyle but at least I'll know that my passing up Krispy Kreme and Pizza is not in vain.. I can't afford to keep spliting my scrubs..